Logic occurs occasionally!

I haven't really said much of value lately, have I? Haven't really been feeling that fantastic either though, today's probably my first day of very vaguely normal headspace in a week or two.

Crohn's wise, I'm utterly over it. Fed up to the eyeballs and just want it to go the hell away. Still not quite comprehending the "This is the problem, there's no cure" thing, though now when those thoughts roll through my mind it genuinely feels as though I've smacked myself up against a brick wall, as opposed to the previous drowning in the middle of the ocean with nothing to grab on to. Still having shockers of days, just falling apart and struggling a lot in trying to pull myself back together.

Pain wise, I'm getting headaches every day which require pain meds. Also the apparently arthritic pain keeps rocking up, mostly in my finger, wrists, knee and hip. Am also getting abdominal pain every day, it's just a lottery as to whether it'll be there all day or whether it'll wait off until the evening, and also as to which specific point it'll be (I've worked out there's five places, and a combination of any or all of the above). Then there's the general tummy ache that's all over (much rarer than the abdo pain), and then there's the "I've been shitting liquid all day" tummy and back pain (so much fun, but at least rarer than the general tummy pain).

Side effects: Extremely tired. And I mean extremely. Suffer from chronic fatigue as a result of glandular fever/mono a few years back. Managed to get on top of that with Bowen therapy (seriously, a godsend, try it!), but now the fatigue is just as bad, if not worse (thanks Imuran!). Not to mention nausea and dizziness.

Also still getting funny vision/trouble focusing, the odd chest pain (pick a side), vagueness, the shakes, and random cramping sensations. Still phoning the doctor weekly to find out if the Imuran is killing my liver (it's not, and while I think of it I did get to yay about not having diabetes [go me!]), still getting weekly blood tests. Go to see doctor next Monday again. Bah humbug. Just more time, and more money that I've got to somehow find.

Food: Keeping up the dairy intake, particularly milk, seeing as it seems to be going okay with me (possibly giving me gas and a rumbly tummy, but not shooting straight through which is fantastic). I like my bones not breaking thanks! Quiche is going well, so one of those gets had of a morning as a rule. Oats are also awesome (when I'm not randomly dropping the bowl). Red Rooster sadly still remains the demon in disguise.

In completely different news. My fish are being fish (shock horror!). And are currently expecting me to feed them (I think!). I love my little black one! It's cute, and has boggly eyes. *cuteness goes here* There's still no kitten in my bottom drawer, and sadly the two at the pet shop were sold on the weekend so there goes getting one of them and putting it in there. :P

I am in possession of my Firefly dvds again, so I'm back to getting my kicks from that. Also going through many of the books that I've started reading then stopped and am getting time to read them. My evenings exist of getting home, having a drink, having dinner, going to bed and reading for half hour or so, clonking out stone cold/thrashing and crashing for hours until I fall into a fitful sleep (the meds like to vary it for me :S). I'm such a boring person.

Bah humbug I say!

So yesterday. Ate crap. Ended up feeling like crap. Mild to moderate Crohn's pain, pooped a bit (no diarrhoea, but still running for the ladies), and then weird pain. Somewhere between the Crohn's pain and nausea, and I couldn't place it. Very weird.

Today.... I have a cold. Cough kicked in last night, although has behaved today. Sore-ish throat. Achey. In other news, am tired as all get out, and have a rather rotten dose of the shakes. Also, blood in poop. Not as bad as before, but just enough for me to notice it. The amount alone really wouldn't bother me, and it was only the once, but considering the Crohn's pain is at least a moderate today if not slightly worse makes me think that things aren't quite as controlled as I thought they were.

Shakes make things difficult. Hitting the right keys on the keyboard for example. Serving up vegetable. Peeling and cutting potatoes (was actually rather worried about doing so last night because I couldn't stop my hands shaking and with a knife in hand it's a bother). Also a bit upsetting to watch the hands shake and not be able to stop them.

Need to go and get blood tests done this afternoon. First of my weekly blood tests to keep an eye on the Imuran, and also the sugars one to tell me if I've got diabetes or not. Joy of joys. Not bothered by the thought of getting the tests done as such, just really tired and want to go home but instead have to drive to get them done after work then drive home. Blergh.

V. Tired.