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Really hope everyone is okay out there, and if you're down at all over anything, know that I'm sending massive big hugs (although we all know internet hugs are kinda sucky compared to the real thing). :D

Random gloop.

Next time my body tells me it needs Red Bull and pain killers I am not going to ignore it. For real. Promise. Haven't been sleeping well lately, on top of all the normal fatiguey crap. Had someone have a go at me this morning about the amount of meds and stuff I'm on and they seemed to pull up very short of calling me a druggie. So I sat there at work the whole day with no Red Bull and no pain relief. I managed to keep my head off the keyboard, though my colleagues were under strict orders that if they found me face planted on the desk to just leave me there. Also didn't have any pain relief. My head doesn't like me today, so that was a challenge, and my back and hips are arguing with sitting still for 8 hours, but I did it. I am however caving, as damnit I need sleep! Also managed to get my mitts on some Phenerghan which should knock me out for a good few hours.

I really don't think it's fair to be treated like crap just because you have health issues that someone else doesn't have and doesn't/can't/won't understand. I mean, to get the meds to keep you in remission you basically have to turn yourself into a contortionist who doesn't care about their dignity and can leap blindfolded through flaming rings. And then there's not just the 20 questions, but the gazillion questions that the chemist throws at you if it isn't a prescription med (hello codiene), which stop very short of asking you about your mother's sexual history. Well okay, not quite that far, but bloody hell. I don't get why people treat the ligits like druggies, and the druggies get it all for fricking free, along with the sympathetic "Oh, you poor thing, it must be so hard giving up those live destroying drugs". *Insert worn out scream here* Just so fed up with it.

Work is going well. Money is good. Just wish the job had some degree of permanency to it. And I wish I was capable of making up my mind. One minute I've decided I'll move to Canberra, then I change it to Queensland, then West Aus, then somewhere completely random. All I know is I'm tired of where I am, and yet I'm too chicken to leave it.

Gagh. Anyway. I'm gonna bugger off now before I keep on ranting. Hadn't intended to. Really. Honest.

Oh, and I think I've developed an allergy to alcohol. Seems just recently everytime I drink any booze it starts playing up with the airways. All tight and swolen feeling, at least on the inside, as if they're closing up. Rather bothersome. Eh.

Random babblings of a tired person.

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Ahem. Yup, quite fluent in gibberish. :D

So, since last time. Am apparently anaemic now, down to 5 as opposed to somewhere low in the normal range of 10 to 30. Doc jumped on this to explain my fatigue and steered me in the direction of iron tablets. I wasn't going to tell him I've been tired for a year now and my iron levels have only just dropped for this blood test. Still dosing myself on redbull and tea, making it through the day.

Glands have gone down, apparently there wasn't any GF/mono, which is great, but still don't know what it was.

Got the humira script, it took near two weeks, and then when it did rock in at the doc's and they phoned and left a message, my phone neither rang not took said message so it was another four or five days before I could get the script. That in addition to crappy service after a merger in the last year or so sees me talking with my feet. Have a new sim with a new phone service provider rocking up sometime this week. Fingers crossed it works out better.

Have had my contract at work extended, am now employed until the end of Feb next year. Fingers crossed something permanent comes up.

Haven't been doing a great deal of late, just getting by I suppose. Reading a lot, and curling up withs the odd dvd, but otherwise, it's just the lovely cycle of work and sleep.

Bought a new fishtank recently, and have decked it out with all the modcons, new filter (shock horror, a proper one that works!) and plants. Letting it get stable before I go getting fish to put it in. The remaining fish is still kicking/swimming, however his tumour seems to be growing a bit, and I don't want to run the risk of it being infectious and infecting the tank before new fish go in, so for now he's staying put in his current home.

Also bought a couple of second hand coffee tables on the weekend, about two foot square but in rather good nick and only set me back $50 for the pair. Will probably spend the next few weekends sanding them back and staining them to match existing furniture. Should be a fun little project (see how boring my life is?).

Anyhow, off to bed (at 7:30.....). Wishing everyone health, and everything they could want. :)